emptied everything. felt sooooooooo marvellous ! reason ? i just shitted :D it's like a week's worth of junks. finally all cleared, woohooo. now i feel ultra light

attempt to laze all the way til late noon, failed. i woke up at 7 plus in the morning with occasion of trying to sleep back. dragged til 10.30, realised i couldnt force myself to sleep anymore /= spick and span my room. swept and mopped the room, my tiles are sparking clean now. wipe my desktop and window panel, not a trace of dust to be seen. arranged some of my stuffs (: left my wardrobe, changing of my mattress and minor msc. will do so once the mood strikes again. in fact, i ought to head down to bbdc to top up my account. but im simply too lazy to do so. the thought of traveling dreads me. it's either i bus down for an hour, or train down for 30 minutes and walk 10 minutes to the destination. either mode of transport is killing me silently. this is the main factor that causes me to delay time and again. im gona plead my big brother to top up for me ! HOHO :D thats the advantage of having loving siblings who will help you no matter what~

work has been relatively fine for me. C is like a mother to E and me. always telling us what's best for us. recently gotten closer with E. just realised that we have some common pointers. one hilarious thing is that, we both attempted to get rid of M because she is simply not the kind of friends that we will engage with. M can only be a colleague but nothing more. both of us actually shared the same perception; we would rather be alone as a newbie than to stuck with someone who is so negative. LOL! as a freshman in this line, im grateful that M has made efforts to show me around the campus and being helpful in areas of work. nonetheless, whenever we have dialouge i realised that she has always got that negative thoughts and would bitch others. dont feel appropriate that you bitch your fellow colleagues behind them. as much as you detest them, there's a certain limit. work-wise, she seems to be the only one grumbling all the time too. i wouldnt want to end up being grouchy like her, thats why i distant myself from her after the first week. only gotten better with other colleagues gradually (:

dawn of my future path. now im clear-headed with right vision on what im going to pursue. im elated that it's gona be this way

“Just because someone doesn’t love you the way you wanted, it doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have. Everyone loves differently.”

enlightened with this quote. as much as i identified the fact that everyone leads individually, my expectation on the way how one should react/response should be according to my benchmark based on how i gauge them. often than not, im disappointed time and again. now, im coming to acceptance that everyone simply behave differently. im feeling better and stronger this tyme round