nearly a year since I returned to this tiny spot. an area where I used to pour my heart and soul, a place where I loved to store my memories. nonetheless, I'm not regretful for not reporting faithfully due to my absence. one way or the other, I have channelled my emotions elsewhere instead of verbal vomit in the cyble world.
yet at this moment, I decided to create an entry. possibly the reason that I'm comfortable to communicate here rather than to the others about what's kept in my mind all this while. need to empty the space for more to be filled :D
this year, there are plenty of ups and downs. nothing new about rollercoaster life, just that im pretty much at the bottoms most of the time! there's a fair share of balance though. for instance, I've seen through the crap side of Person A and I've gained the support of Person B. smooth sailing in life is definitely not possible because of the classic saying that goes: you win some, you lose some. friends, lovelife, kinship, academics all contributed to my worrying concerns. basically, everyone is greedy. greed is the cause of all troubles, not that I'm saying that's primarily the reason! ahaha. simply to say, we are never satisfied with what that's available to us. we want more. we demand more. and these accumulated to my frustrations for the result of overwhelming expectations from them
experienced obstacles that really mould my personality and character to a higher level of maturity. I find it adsolutely ridiculous when someone attempts so hard to argue their way. what's the point. is it really so glorious to win an overheated conversation, I ponder. personally dread it to the core and I'd jolly well excuse myself from such circumstance/s at all cost. I'm appreciative of sincerity and harmony. and im so glad some of my friends belong to this category! I count my blessings and cherish it very much (=
it's a shortcoming for those who don't plan ahead of time while anticipation of future can be really exhausting if you tried to vision so far ahead. what I'm referring to is; we have no abilities to make accurate predictions. however, we hold the capabilities to provide a worthy lifetime as desired.
in a nutshell, im pretty immune to what’s happening around. a mental booster would be awesome! concurrently, I’d like to reformulate my short and long run goals again. super hyped up for a kickstart of brand new year. just in time to orientate myself :D well, let’s wait for the next random entry again!
